pittsburgh Steelers & shoplifters

2 in one day? no way. yes way.
i do not like today. it's turned out to be a sucky day.
ray lamontagne was sold out. sold out. the one thing i've been looking forward to. i stood outside for magical tickets from harry potter, but so was everyone else.
i have so much anger built up inside and i'm starting to not trust anyone.
i don't trust anyone at work which is pretty much where my friends are right now since i'm there so much. i don't like a woman i work with and she pretty much told me in our "we need to work things out" conversation that she's not the only one who talks bad about me. how freaking rude and uncalled for is that?! now, i think she's lying to me to make herself look better from talking crap about me...but it's got me all insecure now. to make matters worse, everything is rocky on the regular life i lead outside of work. i'm starting to really dislike a friend and i'm trying really hard to pray that God will take those feelings away from my brain. i want to like them. i feel like i'm in the middle of a town i shouldn't be in the middle of. i'm in a new friendship and it wont go past small talk on both ends. i really wish i could be in crush with someone; i wish someone would crush back. it makes me feel pretty and normal. and i'm really sad that ro has never bought groceries and she's "lived" here since may.
i'm not sure if i'm getting real friendships back and that scares me.
i need to cry, but i can't get anything out. it's stuck inside my face.